not sure why i picked this as my title.
i think its just a cool song title.

After alot of thought...and swearing i have decided to change from blogdrive
to maybe Blogspot or livejournal.

these accidental deletion of entries if you make ONE WRONG MOVE.
is completely getting on my nerves.
I like the look of blogspot.
so ill probably change to that.

As a matter of fact..im changing...now.

VIVA LA JESSICA IS UNAVAILABLE AS A URL!
grrr =[

but vivalajessiica is!!!

So visit me on my new blog

www.vivalajessiica.blogspot.com

!!!!

"Until next time america"

Even though i didnt really want to day to be a lazy day it kinda was.
I woke up late and just myspaced bands and downloaded alot of music.
I downloaded:
 Metro station
The Audition
Brokencyde
Forever the sickest kids
Artist Vs Poet
Sky eats airplane

I really like brokencyde and Sky eats airplane they are screamo/electronica.
so they say. they basically use urban beats and scream instead of rap.
its really different but suprisingly good.
Metro Station are suprisingly better than i remember i have also learnt besides the fact that trace is dating hanna beth (who didnt know) Trace cyrus is Miley Cyrus's half brother or something same mums diff dads. And Mason Musso is Mitchell Musso's older brother he plays oliver in hannah montana.Trace looked way better when he had snakebites at the bottom of his lips as opposed to the top of his lips (if that makes sense)

I then went to KFC with clara and her parents then we went to orange grove.
first stop Office works and clara almost murdered brian cause he wouldnt give her money and she needed it when HE DIDNT.
we then made our way to harvey norman where we started to watch justin timberlake on the big plasmas THEN IT FINISHED AND THEY PUT SOME WHORE CALLED PHIL COLLINS ON...grr he is BBAAADDD iwanna kill him. We then went to domayne oooh my i love massage chairs i want to go back to domayne and sit there and talk its so comfy and massagey?

All weekend ive been trying to figure out what im forgetting
i knew there was an important event this weekend that was bringing me down a whole bunch. And today when my parents got home from melbourne my mum quietly reminded me.
its been three years since my unlce died.
His liver failed or somehting like that.
I dont remember i was 12 the point was my uncle died.all i remember was that my mum told me and i just broke down. I never understood how something can just knock you down until then.

So tonight i just remembered a whole bunch. I can honestly not think of a bad thing about my uncle apart from the fact that his ex wife could have quite possibly been the worst decision made.period. Also she could quite also have passed as a transvestite. not that im talking smack about the hag that broke his heart.

Well i think its time for a change in topic.

The Maine, yes they have a new song called everything i ask for and i realllyyy love the happiness in it. They treat each other like crap and they are total oposites but he has her and she has him and thats all that matters.

She loves music but she hates my band
Loves Prince, she's his biggest fan
Not big on holding hands
But that's alright 'cause I still got her
She keeps up on current affairs
Prada is what she wears
I don't know what she sees in me (sees in me)
But I'm happy that she's happy now that she's with me
And I'm freaking out because I'm just so lucky

Oh she makes me feel like shit (it's always something)
But I can't get over it (she thinks it's nothing)
'Cause shes everything I ask for
Everything I ask for
And just a little bit more
Everything I ask for
Everything I ask for and so much more

Today was the lazy day gilmore girls all day and i cried a whole bunch.
LOGAN WAS COOL until the final episode HE DIDNT COME BACK
he didnt come back for rory his final sentence of the whole series
Goodbye then rory gilmore  or something like that.
GRRRR HE SHOULDBE COME BACK!

Im starting to atone for what happened i dont know how its working out.
but its something.

Today was originally supposed to be an adam and Jessica day.
it turned out to be a Jessica, Latisha, Ray, Shain, Chris, Kim , Sam and Jenny day.

We all watched Narnia 2 it was really good.
there were really cute parts and HI-larious parts.

I think one of the most priceless parts was when Lucy pulls out her dagger (aka butter knife) looking all hardcore.
The mouse Reepicheep is a frikken legend.
At the end of the movie we went to myer and kim and I got the same t-shirt which we plan on wearing to christines next Saturday.
My sister hit shain in the nuts with a foam sword. It was kinda funny.
im a bit pissed I missed it.
After Kim and Shain and Chris left Those left were sitting in the foodcourt and sam suddenly goes "what would the world be like if everyword ended in G" so it was decided that we would do so. And if the word already ended in g the word gay would come after it
Vaginag, Penisg, Uruthrag, Hellog, Faggay, Doggay, Eggay Noggay, yehg. Etc.etc.

We ran into wong which was pretty good. I wanted to go see Andrew at work but I forgot how  to get there = =". We NARROWLY caught our train, we then went to woolies and with my $9 left ON me my sister and I decided instead of pulling out my key card we would see how much we could buy with $9…surprisingly not much.
Ran into HAYLEY C. gosh its been AGES it was such a surprise i first ran into Maylina and Katie then someone taps me on the shoulder and I go into cardiac arrest.
IM REALLY SORRY YOU GUYS I think I totally dogged youse.

I then went home got picked up to go to tanyas house for a bbq with clara ate then came home.

Im crazy tired cause I couldn't sleep last night.
Too many thoughts going through my head.
and now they are back. Clara should be over soon and we are gunna watch emma and other stuffs. xD

I recently downloaded the insturmental off bring me the horizons album.
i didnt do it earlier because..im not a fan of instrumentals.
but this is so pretty.
and it comes from a deathcore band.

I really love bring me the horizon NOT FOR OLI SYKES like many think.
at the moment im really into for stevie wonders eyes only.
but i love the lyrics to Tell slater not to wash his dick.
crude title but i like this part.

You say, you say, I'm only a phone call away.
But for me, this distance is decay.

I havent really blogged about school that much.

WELL!
School is quite relaxed for me. There are the weeks were there is everything and i have to cram so much work into one night. And weeks kinda like the one im having now. where everything just flows.

Just Finished Pastel Landscape work in art mine were abstract and i got 19/20 and 16/20. The 19 one i love to bits. We are still doing landscape but sketches again we can turn int abstract though we have to draw it in our diaries then onto canvas. We are now starting to feel the pressure of the major work for yr 12. In almost every class our Major Works are mentioned and thinking about it is getting annoying.

Modern Case study/ historical investigationFINALLY figured out. "Assess the role of the media (film) in the potrayal of women in the french revolution and assess the accuracy of this potrayal" 

Legal studies one of the easiest subjects. Boring. Yet Easy. i got my test back and did WAY better than i felt i would have 2 marks off 100%

Math. Im probably failing. Ancient Kinda reallyyy boring the hell out of me.English is quite good studying horror movies at the moment its so much fun. The only down is that my class hasnt watched "typical" horror movies We watched sleepy hollow ( Tim Burton) which was REALLY good but not scary. And also the son of frankenstein or something which is like scary movie but 10000% times better.

I still need to figure out a historial investigation for ancient. I think im gonna do Caligula.

 i understand how scissors can beat paper , & i get how a rock can beat scissors , but there's no fucking way paper can beat rock . Is paper supposed to magically wrap around rock and leave it immobile ? why the hell can't paper do this to scissors ? screw scissors , why can't paper do this to people ? why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they take notes in class ? i'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody . a rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. when i play paper scissors rock , i always choose rock . then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper i can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say , " oh shit , im sorry , i thought paper would protect you , you asshole

Just a random finding that made me laugh alot;D

It kind of just hit me..people READ this.
should i be glad or akward?

English And Legal tests today.
i got worked up for nothing.
the only thing left is VA pastel drawing due tomorrow.

"THE NOD"- The nod symbolizes we are the same kinda people who listen to the same kinda stuff etc.
And i got one today. made me feel a little special.
I get on the train (peak hour = =") nowhere to sit alone.
So i pick someone who looks my age. Cause The adults piss me off. Death stares and shizz. 
I sit down and he stares at my folder (bring me the horizon).
Then he looks at me..and i get "the nod" =D.
Two minutes later he pulls his out of his bag.
"bullet for my valentine"
i try my hardest not to throw it out the window.
but i must give him credit because atleast its not chris brown or something.
so i give him "the nod" too. 

During the essay part of my english assessment i wrote "in both texts they are arguing and fighting for what they want and believe because giving up and staying silent proves that whats happening is not worth fighting for. They are fighting because they care and what they care about is being lost." I needed to make a relation to both texts so making up shit seems to work. but it made me think i guess.  

Are we giving up? I dont want to give up. I want it to be how it was. But it wont.
we can go forwards or backwards. There are somethings im not good at. but you need to understand i mean well. In everything i did i meant well. I didnt expect a no its not okay when i asked. But if that question that TOPIC meant so much to her then she should have fought for it...i would have. I dont know why we are arguing now. i always thought it was because of that one thing. What is it really?
is it because im not what you wanted me to be?
I need to know.
because i dont see everything like you do.

there is always a bad guy and a good guy in every story.
and im glad to say im the bad guy.

I cant handle much at the moment. i need ONE extra day off school to sort it all out.
Get every bit of my crap and sort it out.
catch up on everything.
Sleep.
what ive done.
i need to process everything.

I dont want anyones sympathy. I dont want to hear "whats wrong?" 
I want to hear the truth. I seem to be giving the truth...but where the truth counts. Its not believed. 

I know that i can be a bitch.. i know im more selfish than id like to be. And i know more than anything i like to get what i want. 
Yes i have the "negatives" about me and i admit that im not perfect.
I accept it all.

In love with pierce the veil again.
=] love love love them.

id like to thank eileen here i had the shittest day.
and she tried SO hard to make me feel better
she even bought me that tim-tam drink from golria jeans =]
just her caring made me feel so much happier.
"im buying your unhappiness away like the phsyco guy"
Thanks to kit aswell.
you guys cheered me up a fair bit.

i love you guys xD